So I lost the battle..
I was supposed to go on vacation with my friends today. That didn’t happen.
lol this sounds much more dramatic than it is, but it sucks man. I really wanted to go. I was going to see some of my old friends, I was going to hang out, and chill and eat. I LOVE eating. But the anxiety was too much. I lost.
It sucks because I can recognize what’s happening, and I was trying to be strong and fight it? But it wasn’t any use.
It’s so FRUSTRATING because I can’t do anything about it. I mean obviously I can, but it’s so hard, and it’s tough, because I want to enjoy life and go on a spring break vacation with my friends… but I can’t.
I don’t know at some point I might warp this and say I didn’t actually have anxiety I just didn’t want to go, but once again, for the record, that is a lie.
So sending off from my bed at home instead of a train heading north, I bid thee all a great day. ✌🏽